You must be thinking what in the world happened to me.
Well, my exams ended two months ago and I am healthy and happy (almost) now.
I did land my sorry ass into a decent enough dental college so I guess I did succeed in the end.
But I have this itch. It’s getting stronger and stronger day by day. I’m not sure what it’s about but I think it’s related to this new chapter of life I’ll be starting in a few days.
I am scared.
I am also excited.
I just hope everything turns out ok.
Which makes me think of how we, as humans, always worry so much. First I worried about good grades in school, then I worried about getting into a college, now I’ll worry about getting good grades in college and then I’ll worry about getting a job. Oh god. This is so endless.
But is it worth it?
I hope so.
These past few days I’ve just felt great gratitude towards everything; my parents, my sister, my friends and almost everything. Just because I was so free and suffocated by spare time, I stopped and glanced around. I pondered. And it made me feel thankful yet frightened. Frightened of everything, to be honest. But most frightened about what’s to come next. I think I’m confusing fear with anticipation. But that itch continues to torment me.
I hope it stops soon. Or should I let it continue till my fingers peel off the cocoon and unleash… whatever there is inside me?
Do write back and tell me how you’ve been these past few days. I would love to hear from you.